It took almost 33 years to find my true love. I searched far and wide. I looked for this true love in many places. Mostly the hearts of others. I would look at them thinking ‘Is it you?’ Not paying attention to my own reflection in their eyes, I just kept searching. The search was hard. It left my heart battered. Having to restart, I sat alone. At the bottom of the barrel. The end of the rope. And that’s when I noticed her smiling at me. It took alot of work to look at her and admit I loved her. For it is truly scary to fall in love with one’s self. It’s an embarrassing process of sorts, an awkward Bambi legs of a moment. I never thought she could be my true love. I used to not understand her. She annoyed the shit out of me. I would look in the mirror and think her hair was weird. Her legs were big. She talked too much. She was too excited about life. She was too much in general. She wanted too big of things. She loved too much. She cried too much. She was too emotional. Too sexual. Too temperamental. I starved her. I beat her up mentally and physically. I was ashamed of her. I tried to make her small. So I found myself alone with her, falling for her, I had a lot of I’m sorrys to tell her. A lot of acceptance to give her. So to make up for lost time I try to love her as much as possible every day. Listen to her. Feed her well. Let her play and dance. Some days I slip and that’s ok. She forgives me. She knows I love her and there is no turning back. Hope you find your true love too. ~Alexandra Roxo
Self love is the place that we come to when we let go of everything else. It is the key ingredient for internal power. When you search for your self worth in external circumstances, you will never be fulfilled. Know that you are enough, you are worthy and release the negative self you ego has created and reconnect to the love that you are.