The Embodiment of Self Love

Happy New Year!! Welcome to 2022! 

Did you know that the spiritual meaning of 222 is all about BALANCE, MANIFESTING MIRACLES and SEIZING NEW OPPORTUNITIES. When you see 222, allow it to remind you to keep the faith and stay true to your personal truths. In this life, there are no accidents. Everything happens for a reason. One of the greatest lessons I’ve learned is to be grateful that I didn’t end up with what I wanted. The Universe has your back even when things don’t work out the way you planned. 

On New Year’s Eve I announced on my FB page that my family might be a lil extra excited for the New Year, in March we will be welcoming a new baby boy to our family. He is truly a MIRACLE.

On March 18th, 2019, I was 10 weeks pregnant with my 3rd child when I began spotting blood. While I waited to be seen in the ER, I was reading “The Universe has your Back” by Gabby Bernstein, the chapter I was reading was titled, “Obstacles are detours in the right direction”. Intuitively, I knew what was to come, I received the most heart breaking news, that there was no longer a heartbeat. I was completely devastated. The following day, March 19th, 2019 I went into labor and miscarried. As I entered the grieving process, I leaned on my spirituality and began my healing journey. 

Throughout the last 3 years, I’ve studied A Course in Miracles, learning to forgive, learned to trust, learned to choose love over fear, learned to surrender my desires and needs, studied energy healing, reiki, ancestral healing, yoni steaming, womb healing, completed Gabby Bernstein’s Spirit Junkie Masterclass, became a High Priestess, learned how to love myself, release the trauma from my womb, released the need to control, learned to slow down, embody my divine feminine, use my intuition and ultimately healed my creative essence and inner radiance so I can empower other women to heal themselves as well. 

During those 3 years, I had an angel beside me every step of the way leading me, watching over me and sending me messages and confirmations through butterflies, mostly yellow ones. We named our baby Angel, since we didn’t know the sex, but intuitively, I know it would have been a girl. Angel was guiding me along the most incredible healing, self discovery and spiritual journey I’ve ever experienced and continues to this day.

In July 2021, I found out I was pregnant again, shocked, emotional, and scared I would go through another loss. I slipped into what some would say, a dark night of the soul. I had had no intentions on having another baby. I felt I couldn’t get excited about our news and expected the worst. My emotions were high and I knew I needed to clear my energy, so I booked an energy healing session with one of my fellow mastermind peeps. In that session, I could feel the weight being removed and at the end of the session, she said she had a message for me from an angel…”It’s ok to be happy”. I knew it was Angel letting me know I could relax and trust in whats to come. I had to again release the need to control and surrender to the divine.

At my first prenatal visit, my OB confirmed with a due date of March 18th, 2022.

(3 years to the day since our loss) 

Our rainbow baby is the embodiment of self love and me healing my womb. I’ve spent years of my life seeking love outside of myself, validation from others and hiding behind good hair and makeup. I still love my hair and makeup, but the point is that my outer appearance doesn’t determine my worth, my level of self love or define me. I do my hair and makeup because I honor myself. I own my inner goddess. I released womb trauma (miscarriage, c-section, rape, sexual abuse) I shed layers of hurt, pain, unforgiveness, shame, guilt, unworthiness, co-dependency, anger, depression, and grief. Spirit took me on a journey of unlearning, deprogramming, and remembering so I could be the mother, wife, teacher, hairstylist and empowerment coach I am today. I’m so grateful for this path and to share my story with you. 

So as we enter a new year, I want to encourage you to be open to possibilities, expect miracles and heal your womb. Love, honor and pamper your womb. She is the seat of your feminine creation and inner radiance. Own your inner goddess and you’ll radiant on the outer.

I’m always happy to help you look your best on the outside with a fresh cut and color and it would be an honor to empower your inner goddess so your radiance can illuminate much more in all you want to co-create in your life. If you don’t have a spiritual practice, join my group, Illuminating Radiance Sacred Circle.